Wow, check this out – another update. Okay, so in the heat of my previous explosion, I may have neglected to explain what exactly happened. At the time, I kinda thought most of you would have been able to figure it out, but due to concerned calls (which I greatly appreciate, thanks you guys!) I feel it is my duty to explain a bit more.
About two months ago, I applied for a new gig at the not-so-evil corporation I currently serve at. Quite a step up had I actually got it. Anyway, I was partially inspired by ye old spiel about how the department encourages anyone to apply for these positions regardless of where you are now. What a crock of BS. But I digress…
So way back when, I was very nonchalant about things. If I get it great, if I don’t –no biggie. But that was a long time ago. Up until the last update, I had been led to believe that I was in. Sure none of the brass actually said the word, but as I said many times to people asking me if I had got the job, “All signs point to yes.” Some friggin 8ball I am, doh!
Anyway for your entertainment, I’ll go into these signs. The combination of them all is really why I’m so friggin pissed. I swear, if they had just told me no a month ago instead of stringing me along like a puppet, I’d be okay now. It started pretty early on with rumors from various sources popping up that I had gotten it. I don’t really take stock in rumors, but hey, they were there from various sources and were telling me what I wanted to hear. I had interviewed well (that I know for sure) and I guess the story fit nicely. The first real sign came a few weeks ago, when I was asked to take what amounted to a personality test for management and leads. Seeing as how no one else in my position had been asked, it looked good. I talked to other supervisors and leads and they talked about the test and how it basically told them about their leadership styles. It looks like they were trying to figure out mine in order to find out exactly what shift to stick me on. From there the signs started popping up left and right. Another one of my colleagues began lead training and since IMHO I was easily the top candidate for such a spot, I figured that they skipped me since I was already selected to move beyond that position. I even had a conversation with one of my leads, where he told me not to worry about being passed over since the brass “had plans for me.”
As the need for the position steadily grew, more and more people began to approach me to find out if I would “be their boss.” After my normal reply, I would be greeted with a “don’t worry, of course, you got it” or a “you’ll be great at that job.” So many people believed in me, how could I not believe in myself? So the day finally comes when I get an email from the manager telling me so sorry for the delay, we’re finalizing things now, will schedule a meeting next week, can’t wait to meet with you. More good news, I thought. Since when does anyone look forward to giving you bad news? So the week rolls around and still no word – turns out the manager was out sick. No problem, I’ve waited this long, a few more days won’t kill me. But on the last day, I get a call- did the senior sup talk to you about the spot? Nope. Well, that’s another good sign. I would be reporting to her if I got the gig. Okay big finish.
So the night is just about over and I get called into my sups office. Lo and behold the manager is there at an ungodly hour (after begin out sick most of the week no less). So a few formalities are exchanged and he says “we decided not to hire you.” I guess I made a witty comment or something (that I can’t remember), but he proceeds to say, “No, I’m serious.” Pretty much everything after that was in one ear and out the other. It was kinda like getting kicked in the face – I never saw it coming. Then it’s just kind of hazy and I’m trying to figure out what just happened. I did manage to hear something about needing more leadership experience and to go for the next lead spot that opens up. Like they couldn’t have told me that months ago. They knew exactly where I was at and this BS excuse just isn’t cutting it. In the meantime, the fact that I just got passed over for said lead position was like another slap in the face. The manager basically came all the way into work to kick me in the nuts. Upon reflection, I bet it’s because he wanted to give me the weekend to cool off. Getting me pissed off on a Monday won’t help with production. Besides, I’m supposed to be one the top people. Shyeah right.
So that’s where I’m at. Stuck.